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I have to admit, I "liked" alven and Jennyang in the past was solely because: they were nice to me. Nothing else, just purely nice and caring to me. And can you believe it, that's their resemblance to Paul. Seriously, even though I thought I liked them, I did not really have super duper strong feelings for them. It's just like, nothing talk then sua, got things to talk then text me kinda attitude? So, considered that they two were just misconceptions?

Okay so if I label the two of them as misconceptions, this means I'm currently still stuck in the past, which is 2 years ago. Okay la actually I assumed that already. But I'm just making it miserable for myself, ain't I? Okay now to make things more complicated, Paul knows I like him now. -.- I don't care, he just have to forget that fact, if not whenever I talk to him I'll be reminded that I've held on for two fucking years, giving up all the chances that were put in front of me [darren, ruijie] and I would feel damn guilty for the two of them.It's not that I thought they were not up to standard or anything, there's just this barrier that I can't seem to cross.

There's no such thing as best guy-friend or best girl-friend. Coz one of you would fall for the other.

Yeah I totally agree. Opposite genders are not meant to be best friends. No matter how hard they try, one of them surely would not be able to resist. And that's me. Two years and I'm still not over it.