So many things happened just over a span of two months. Laughed, cried, frowned, feeling unwanted and everything, just because of that one person. I may be called a fool, maybe it wasn't worth the pain and tears, but I know it would be worse if I let go.
Let's go back to where we used to be.
Family problems overload, I couldn't afford to give a shit about my feelings for him now. For now, I just want to friends with him, just friends. All these years, I can say that he's one of the closest friends of mine. Even though we don't have much to remember, even though he does not really give a shit about my problem and I was always the one who tell him my problems willingly and he just acted like how he should, it seems like I just can't do without his existence in my life.
Fuck all this emotional wreck in me.
I feel so confused right now. After all those complicated confessions, I don't know what to do any more. It's like, 3 years of friendship puffed into smoke just like that. It's not the same any more. For one minute, we were like best friends forever and the next minute we turned to be only acquaintances. I tried to talk it out, but he acted dumb. I don't know what to do any more. I don't even know what to think right now.
"Every girl will have a guy that they will never forget of
Maybe that's true, and it unluckily turns out to be him. My supposed best friend. And now we're just left with ashes of memories, unbreakable walls between us.
Saturday, February 25, 2012
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